Been a looong time, ma frendz. Long time.

So I saw Green Day, nearly shit myself at how unbelievable they were and the fact that I got like, RIGHT UP AGAINST THE GATE, in front of Mike Dirnt.

I also returned to school, this time at the magnet school I auditioned for and got accepted into, and realized just how shitty of an artist I am. I mean, it's just...beyond words. The shit I've done is child's play compared to the creativity and abilities of the majority of the art students here. It's great to constantly try and challenge myself, yet it's also kind of like a huge slap in the face. It seems like most of the kids are VERY competitive about their art, probably because you kind of have to be if you want to get into a show, which, by the way, I did not get into our first official one. However, I can definitely see why after looking at the pieces that did get in. Yet again, my shit is just child's play.

What an annoying ass term. Sorry for torturing everyone with that "child's play" bullshit. Anyways...

To compensate for the picture I didn't get to print so I could do a graphite drawing of it over the four-day weekend (the girl whose camera I used forgot it >, I've been blasting music and just going into this sketching rampage. I'm desperate to not suck anymore, honestly, and it's gotten to the point where I'm like...not able to do anything else really. I'm just sucked into this zone, but you know, it's about time. I don't think I mind it much at all. In fact, I've always wanted to create things, so it all works out. I just wish my classes like English and history weren't so demanding about projects and nightly assignments. For some odd reason, things I was able to do without much of a sweat are now nearly impossible to even begin, and it's been like this for a year or two now. I struggle to do something as quick and easy as freaking algebra homework, and that's not good. I just don't understand why everything is such an effort to accomplish. It's like, all I really want to do lately is sleep. If I'm not sleeping, I'm tired and not even really there. I think today and yesterday have been a huge acception, and what I'm doing isn't even close to what I used to do. I was busier in fucking fourth grade than I am now; at least, that's how I treated my work--both school and...non...school.

So, yeah.

Dating department has been kind of pathetic, yet more active than usual, mainly because the kid I like seemed to really enjoy flirting with me continuously only to tell me he got rejected after asking his friend out. Huh. what an ass. I found out it's because he's a year older than me, so that classifies as me being "too young" for him, but once upon a time, he did like me. I guess that counts for something. He's still an asshole.

ANYWAYS OMG YES ZEBRA MOAN MMM!!!

Happy Halloween.